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Friday, December 31, 2004

Fri, 31 Dec 2004 18:34:53 GMT

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Friday, December 31, 2004

Fri, 31 Dec 2004 16:13:12 GMT

thats it im done with this... i need help

heres something for you to look at if you dont give a shit about that up there

\\editt//
keep this kid and his family in your prayers
i didnt know him but looked at his xanga a few times and hes committed suicide and id say that at least half of the xanga population has seen his xanga because i was looking through random sites and almost all of them had something about him in theirs and ive decided to let you all know about him and please think about him next time you think cutting is a joke or a cry for attention
RIP wes..... hopefully hes in a better place now and hes happy because anyone that suffered enough to do that deserves to be in eternal happiness

Thursday, December 30, 2004

Thu, 30 Dec 2004 17:09:13 GMT

holding out with everything ive got

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Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Tue, 28 Dec 2004 00:58:29 GMT

hey yeah people are over and im dying and they locked me outta my room and my mom said theyre cleaning it and i like my room messy but whatever theyre trying to be nice thats all that counts i guess ok im gonna go die now

Thursday, December 23, 2004

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 20:58:25 GMT

well im glad i was happy for one full day because its all fucking gone
i hate this house its not my home i want my room at home at least if i was home id be going to holy name with all my friends but no because nothing ever goes right so i have to go to fucking oley an theres nothing i can do about it i hate this house so fucking much moving here has ruined my life and i hate it i didnt wanna move here in the first place but because im just a fucking kid my parents could gove two shits where i go to school and whether im happy or not as long as theyre fucking dandy thats all that matters i hate them its their fault im here and its their fault ill never see my friends again and they dont care so i hate them for all of this they knew i didnt wanna move at all so they bought the house that was the furthest away from everything and the one that would hurt me the most i despise them and i never want to talk to them or see them again i wish this house would burn down so id never have to look at it or live in it again i fucking hate it here and i hate my life i wish everything was how it used to be when i was happy and knew where i was going for high school and knew that id be with my friends but i guess its too much to ask to be happy because God obviously hates me and i dont really blame him since im pretty much a waste of his time nothing ever goes right and everything turns out bad and i fucking hate life and i dont care if im complaining if you dont like it dont read it because i need to vent so get the fuck off my site if you dont wanna read this and think that im an annoying person... no one asked you to come

well i think i got everything out i wanted and as for bowling tonight i dno if im ready to be around people yet

editt
forget that last thought.. its the people that are getting me through this
i love you guys

Thursday, December 23, 2004

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 17:35:18 GMT

hella bored...

thaos party last night woo hoo haha no i fell asleep like a little bitch at like 1130 or 12? becaue i had to get up so damn early for school but yeah party was fun especially jessicas dance to that gay kelly clarkson song and then our music video to the "white people making fun of rap song" (((i dno what its called)))

but anyway today is very boring i think im going bowling tonight though;; that could be fun and wow tomorrows christmas eve already which reminds me i think im gonna go look at my presents since no ones here except brett

and yesterday i was happy ALL DAY! and today im pretty happy too so maybe christmas wont suck (((knock on wood))) i dont wanna jinx it

ok well i g2g look at presents

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 00:19:58 GMT

thanks for the comments you are some cool kids

i dno if ive been feeling any better though but at least i know people are there for me

dude today in scince mrs himmelberger told me i need to try smiling so i tried it and it didnt really happen lol and yes patrick i saw you laughing at me when she said i need to smile (((youre not as sneaky as you think)))

but then i started feeling a little better because of hanging with my awesome friends at recess and then that gay movie at the end of the day haha "i want to make love to you over and over but i will never tell you. i would make love to you right now for the rest of my life,,, but i would never tell you" and then patrick... "then hes raping her" (((laughs)))

i slept in pretty much every class except science and then at thaos all we did was sleep and then eat soup

so that was my day but as you know as soon as i get home i feel shitty again gosh i hate it here i seriously thought iw as gonna cry today and yesterday at school but i didnt because then people make a huge deal and i didnt want them doing that
ill edit later if i feel like it

Sunday, December 19, 2004

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 01:19:30 GMT

i miss being a little kid

i miss being able to stand my parents

i miss the days when boys had cooties

i miss loving my school

i miss not being ashamed of myself

i miss my parents and friends knowing me

i miss spending more time out of my room than in it

i miss being able to tell people what goes on in my life

i miss having silly little crushes that didnt hurt

but most of all....

i miss being happy

i just want everything to be how it was when i was five;;; i never had to worry about anything and my parents cared for me and were nice and i was their little star

i want to be able to tell people how great my life is and how nothing hurts and i want my parents to not care how i dress and not be so stereotypical

i want everything to get better;; i want to talk to someone right now but i dont know what to say i just want to talk

and no ones home anyway because their all out having lives while im stuck here.

i want to cry right now and i want to talk to someone badly i just need someone to listen
its times like these i wish i had best friend that lived with me so i could talk to them any time,,, im not saying my friends arent there for me cause you guys are and youve been a big help lately i just want one person that was here and lived through this with me then maybe i wouldnt be the way i am right now if i had started talking earlier maybe things would be a little different but i cant change that so i just have to deal with this shit myself for now

i feel so small and alone....

Saturday, December 18, 2004

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 20:11:18 GMT

so... last night i felt so sucky when i got home because of my effing parents

and then this morning im in the car going to pick of the (((lovely))) kayla to go christmas shopping and my mom tells me that my dad said, erica hates me i can see it in her eyes, which kinda made me feel like shit but the truth is sometimes i do hate him... i hate them both and other times,, when thyre normal,, i can stand them

i kinda felt bad but they act like they have dont nothing in the past four months to give me a reason to hate them even a little bit i mean seriously they pulled me away from where i grew up,,, took me to a place where nothing is even close to anything ive ever experienced and hten expect me to just be all happy go lucky

and then... all they ever do is yell and over the dumbest things too
and they yell at me for not being into decorating and shit they say the only time i help decorate is when im forced to but would you wanna be around people that always put you down and make you feel like shit?....... exactly

they need to realize im not perfect and never will be and they want to know whats going on in my life yet if i told them i dont think theyd care and theyd probably just yell at me for all the stupid things ive done
they could give two shits about what happens behind the locked door to my room
they wanna know what goes on;;; im tempted to just throw my diary and book of peoms at them then theyd understand all the pain they (((and others))) cause they have no clue what its like to feel unloved and unwanted

i was just gonna run away last night because i dont think theyd care anyway but theres no where to fucking run to and i didnt have money to pay for a cab since i cant walk anywhere cause im in the middle of the fucking forest and there was always the possibility of hitchhiking but i dont think getting into some strange persons car would get me to my friends house it would probably get me raped or killed but now that i have my confirmation check cashed if they piss me off thats it im gone... not that theyd care anyway

but on a lighter note- at the mall today i got my red fishnet and a green shirt for dress down day at school... they green shirt is the tootsie pop thing it says mr. owl how many licks does it take and then on the back- the world may never know and i got pink sholaces for my school shoes and i went to fye to get the hawthorne heights cd and i couldnt find it so i asked the dude that worked there and he said theere were 5 left yet he couldnt find it either so i checked in hot topic and they were all sold out there so i go thte senses fail cd + dvd oh and i saw some really hot dude at hot topic on my way in but he was leaving but then he came baack in later but i was leaving that time but yeah he was really hawt

well i got to go eat something i havent eaten all day except for a bite ofkaylas pretzel at the mall so im really hungry

Saturday, December 18, 2004

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 00:58:45 GMT

i see ive been hacked..... edit later

edittt::::

me and thao's "gangster pic"

my other "gangster pic"

my lovely eyes!!

us trying to look evil

what the fuck is she doing?

just being my retarded self

thao killing me

im in heaven!

thaos "asian eye" niggerrrrrrr haha ok thats enough gangster talk

ok thats it for now!

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